Im so sorry, perhaps im selfish..
I didnt have the time for you, my dear..

Im kinda cockup with my school works and trying my best to spend more time with you.
Trying to plan my time well to make sure you wont feel neglected.. But i still feel i cant overcome my own timing -.-

In the past, i do thing as and when i like but now ive have to think twice because i have to think for u too. I scared i might make u upset scared i might hurt ur feeling, knowing that u treat me good gives me more pressure you know.

I think i dont owe anyone a living hence i dont need to live up to other's expectation other than myself. Something changed my thought my thinking and the way i handle things. I remember-ed i once told my bf that i'll never because of my bf neglect my own things.. etc .. studying, my life and my daily routine..

Because i dont wana live for others i wana live for myself. Self will never betray itself.. (:
Thats what i think is so true, perhaps im selfish having this thought but im happy with this living.
I hope my bf could understand, Im not like ur ex-girlfriend, im myself ive my own character and life so if u wana change me, pls dont waste ur time.

I dont wana give u fcuk attitude cause of the same thing again, when ive no time for u, u will always sound emotional..... and seriously i dont like it, u should know my character im a girl that will never coax ppl.. and i hate doing so to my bf too.. Ur emotional text make me seriously stress -.-

If things carry on this way i afraid i might jus let go of it because i dont like to force things when its not in order.. I dont like to force u to accept my attitude towards rs.. Like is one thing, but cant possibly because of love we neglect our own stuff right?